Home Sick.

I'm tired of perfect roads,

I m tired of fast rail,

Here comes the truth,

In this fresh air,

 It’s difficult to Inhale

I want to burn myself in the temperature forty five,

I too want to be pampered,

Don’t want to be just alive.

Though wonderful people gave me some unforgettable moments here,

But I know something is missing,

This feeling is difficult to bear;

All I can say is I’m home sick, 

Didn't want to show,

Strength is what that I’m losing now,

My family doesn't deserve to be alone,

A feeling is crossing my mind that this heaven is not my own .

Aaj Fir Ek Uphar Dede

Roshni se bhagti zindagi mein mujhko,

Thoda sa chain lauta de,

Palkon ko band ker, apni sanse mehsoos ker sakun,

Mujhko aisi ek shaam lauta de,

Ek bar mujhko holi mein khelne ko,

Rang bhari pichkari dede,

Wo baat baat per mu fulane ki,

Mujhko kamsin bimari dede.

Ek baar fir se mujhko,

Wo chhote hote joote dede,

Hath mein ek pencil dede,

Ankhon mein sapne anoothe dede,

Magic colours aur plastic ka racket dede,

Mummy se chhupa ker jo layi hai,

Hatho mein ,wo chooran ka packet dede,

Wo gudia ke baal khilade,

Ya bambai ki mithai ka uphar dede,

Wo tuti futi English wali,

Ek bar fir se mujhe zuban dede…

Bas ek bar fir-

Ye poem likhne ko, Ek Ink pot,

Aur ek Ink pen udhar dede

Jo ghanton kha saku wo,

Chhota sa aachar dede,

Wo pehla pehla sapna dede,

Pehla pehla pyar dede,

School se chhuti hone per,

 Doston se bichadne ka gam,

Aaj tu mujhko udhar dede…. L

Kal Hi To-

Kal hi to-

Main sochti thi, kis tarah kam karu main baste ka bojh

Kis kitab ko na le jaun, aa dost koi rasta khoj.

Ek din tu le aana kitab, Ek din main le aaungi

Per toffee ki rangin panniyon ke bin main na reh paungi.

Kal hi to-

Dictation mein kam number aane per papa ne danta tha,

Aur barf wali ice cream khane per mummy ne mara chanta tha.

Kal hi to didi ke sath main bournvita chura ker khati thi,

Sawalo ke jawab na aane per teacher se bahane banati thi.

Kal hi to main-

Apne kamre se bahar jane se darti thi,

Chhoti si aandhi dekh ker main mom si pighalti thi,

Subah subah  papa cycle mein hawa bharte the,

Tiffin laga ker mummy meri, bottle mein pani bhara kerti thi

Kal hi to-

Aage aage main hoti thi,

Peechhe mummy nashte ke sang,

Meri khoyi hui cheezo se

papa ho jate the tang.

Kal hi to-

Raaton ko bhai ke sang ,

Der tak padhne ki jang lada kerti thi,

Wo bechare padh rahe hote,

Main kitab kol ke soya kerti thi.

Kal hi to-

Mummy se meri imli todne ki shikayat na kare,

Ki main rikshay wale bhaiya se darti thi,

Bas us ek rupaye ke khatir,

Kanya bhojan pe jaya kerti thi….

Kal hi to

Main roti nahi bas aankhein mala kerti thi,

Sur per mere do choti hua kerti thi,

Haatho mein mere gudiya thi,

Aur main bohot chhoti hua keri thi…….

Haal-E-Dil

Jab pehli bar dekha tha ,to jana nahi tha,

Ki ruk jayegi zindagi yun, unke sath chal ke,

Ek ek lamha guzrega ab humara,

Unke sath guzra ek ek lamha yad ker ke…

Yun to guzaare kuch pal hi thi humne,

Per wo pal ab mujhe raato ko sone nahi dete,

Yun to hai ye ek guzra hua kal,

Per itna khubsoorat ,ki hum ise khone nahi dete…

Tamanna ki hai is dil ne ki,

Ab keh hi denge hale dil, ki hoton ko ab siya nahi jata,

Qaid  ker lenge unko hum apni bahon mein,

Ki ab yadon ke sahare jiya nahi jata….

Meri Manzil Mere Raste

Meri manzil ko namumkin kehne walon, kya tumne meri manzil banayi hai,

Kya tumko pata kya kahani meri, maine kitni thoker khayi hai?

Tum nahi the sath mere, Jis din main tanha akeli thi,

Mere sath mera saya bhi nahi tha, andhere ki main saheli thi.

Kon tha mere aas paas jab main, deewaron mein band roti thi?

Mere aansuon ki fiker kise na thi, jab main raton ko na soti thi

Kisne law jalayi thi jab , meri zindagi mein na hota savera tha,

Us waqt maine jaan liya, Kon mera hai aur kon mera tha.

Logo sunoge jo duniya ki, wo tumhe dhutkaregi,

Waqt mu mod lega, kismet bhi thoker maregi.

Mazil tak pohoch pane ki, qabiliyat usi ne payi hai,

Jo ye ache se janta hai, uski mazil usne hi banayi hai.

                   

They Don't Deserve

As for them it was easy.

Some people don’t know what they are getting…

But time is not same every time,

Today it’s a cake walk, tomorrow could be jetting …

It’s impossible for many,

Which they got as gift,

So why they don’t understand,

Why their decision always drifts…

Wish for them, pray for them;

They are innocent fools….

Once gone, will never come back,

Then keep trying all your possible tools J

I wish....

I still think of you

I still feel so much

My heart halts for a while

When I think of our first touch

My breath slows down

When I see your face

It’s such a lovely feeling

One of my golden days

My lips stop talking

When you talk to me

I wish and sometimes dream

Are you the guy, for me?

Who can go on knees....?

Without you my life is,

 So lonely and lost,

I might not afford you,

If, love would have a cost.

But I thank to God

And every day I pray,

You will join my soul

I wish you will stay.....

Kavi ka dard

Hoti jo unke sang main , zindagi khushiyon se anjan nahi hoti,

Kya karun kuch likh nahi paati, jab tak zindagi pareshan nahi hoti...

Sochti hu unko bhool ke ,judai ka dard mita du dil se...

Per main kavi hu, aur dard bina kisi kavi ki kalpana mein jaan nahi hoti...

Kon sa ghar?

Jab zarurat hai sabse zada, tab koi nazar nahi aata...

Yahan kahan dhundu use, jahan koi mujhe samajh nahi pata,

Yun to main bohot baatein kerti hoon udan bharne ki...

Per sach to ye hain, mujhe ghar pe sukoon milta hai...

aur Aasma ke raste mein , mera ghar nahi aata....

Ab aur akele chalna, mujhe gawara nahi,

Sath dene wala koi humdum hamara nahi...

Baantu kiske sang ye khubsoorat zindagi meri....

Door door tak dikhta koi kinara nahi...

Akele to raja bhi fakeer ban jata hai ,

pyali bhar amrit bhi neer ban jata hai...

To main kahan haisiyat rakhti hu gustakhi karne ki...

Dil yahi soch ker murjha jata hai...

Akhir kiska ghar akele reh ker ban pata hai....

I love you :)

I love you, when you look at me and smile,
I love your eyes, I love your style….

You are a dream, which I never want to break,
You are that ointment which smoothens my ache…

You are a blessing; when you talk,

I wish to the God to stop his clock….

You are a prince, you dress like that,

I can remember ,our every chat…

I love you, when you hold my hand,

And say with me you will always stand…

I love your walk, I love your voice…
You are a kind of person, so that I can proud of my choice…

I don’t know you from my entire life,

But this much is enough to become your wife…

Beetein lamhein hume tadpate kyun hain...

Haste hain hum, muskuratein bhi hain…

Kabhi toot kar, bikhar jate bhi hain…

Per bhulein kaise wo pal wo lamhe,

Jo yad dila jatein hai humko, guzre hue din ke…

Koi to hoga jo dhoka na dega,

Jayega na yun, ek bar jo jayega wo humse mil ke…

Yahi sochte hain ki jo thamega humko,

Wo dhundega kaise tukde itne mere dil ke…

Wo janega kaise hum saanse to lete,

Magar dhadkane chal rhi hain,dil ke tukdo ko sil ke…

Chhro na mujhko halat ki tarah

Machal rahe hain. Tadap rahein hain…

pal rhein hai is dil mein aaj bhi jazbat nanhi jan ki tarah,

Kho na du tujhe darti hu main,

Paya tha tujhe maine ek vardan ki tarah…

Ye saal beetien hain tere bin,

Kai vanwaas ki tarah…

Tujhe itna khush dekh ker darti hu main,

Kahin bhul to nahi gaya tu mujhe, bure khwab ki tarah…

Mujhe pata hai , tu bhi bohot roya tha mere jane ke bad,

Per kahin sambhal to nahi liya tune khudko, hare hue pyar ki tarah,

Itna bata de ki ab kya hai teri manzil…

Mujhe chod na aise, banjare insaan ki tarah…

Bezuban but se ban jatein hain hum unke aage,
Waqt ke aage, ban ke reh gaye hain kacche dhage.
Man to kerta hai, fir ek bar laga lu seene se unhe…
Shayad ek bar fir se jee uthe mera mara hua dil…
Per himmat nahi hoti khush dekh ker unhe,
Aag kaise laga du unki duniya mein main…

Shayad wo aag ju bujh gyi hai unke seene mein,
Fir se fukaar uthe na mere bolte hi,
har ek lamha unki yaadon ka,
kaidh jazbaat, yunhin kholte hi…

Islie khush ho lete hain unki tasweer dekh ke hi
Unke sath rehker ilaz nhi ho paya dil ka,
kya pata jud jaye ye… roz aankein sek ke hi….

My Beautiful Dream....

He came into my life like a sun,

He wasn’t a bit serious, it was fun.

He had broad shoulders, and broad chest,

He was just amazing not like rest.

When he said "I love you", I felt so bliss,

His voice was so virile, like offering of a kiss.

I don’t know was he a dream or a truth,

But he was like a fountain of youth.

He was little weird, but who does care?

The kind of things he says, who else can dare?

I love his smile, his mesmerizing look,

After all he is, yes he is my duke.

Why m not special :(

Why doesn’t anyone love me truly?

Why there is no one to hold my hand?

Why there is no one,

Beside whom I would love to stand?

Why there is nobody who cares for me?

Why there is nobody who does prayers for me?

Why there is no one who can realize my innocence…

Why there is no one who wants my presence?

Why there is no body, and I’m all alone…

Why there is no body and I feel like a breathing stone.

Why there is no body in whose dream I can swim.

And who can say that I’m special for him.