Swollen Eyes!

A broken girl trying to be strong,

She wakes  at night long very long,

A pool of tears which she hides,

A broken dream on which she rides,

She used to think, he is the one,

And didn’t know how much it’ll hurt .

when for him its done...

With swollen eyes she wakes up every day,

Plenty of water she bash on her face,

Thinking water might take the pain away,

She looks into the mirror, saying I’m fine,

She stand straight and fake a smile,

This is how she starts every day,

Hiding the heavy heart behind a busy long day,

She closes her eyes thinking  that she’ll not remember him until she dies,

And next day again she wakes up with a sore throat and swollen eyes.

Meri zaroorat jab tak thi

Main shikwa karu kis baat ka,

Niharta roz mujhe tha wo,

Ki uski nazar mein main,

Khoobsoorat jab tak thi...

Na wo khud basa, 

Na kisi aur ko basne diya...mere dil mein,

Kuchh is kadar Nasur ban ker basi..

Mere dil mein uski moorat ab tak thi...

Jo bigad jaati hai kisi se,

To aaj bhi dua salaam jaan leta hai wo,

Chalo wajah kuchh bhi ho,

Uski zindagi mein meri ratti bhar ki hi sahi,

Ahmiyat ab tak thi...

Khudgarz nahi hai wo,

Khudgarz dil bhar gaya hoga uska,

badi shiddat se chaha tha mujhe usne,

Usko meri zaroorat jab tak thi...

Tere Bin...

Khoya Nahi tujhko maine, per pake tujhe ab judai sahi nahi jati...
Meri raaton ki neend udane wale,  keh de tujhe bhi neend nahi aati...

Ek undekha unchhua sa rishta jo hai tere mere beech,
Us rishte mein duniyadari ki seemaien nahi aati...

Mujhe pata hai ek pyase panchhi ki tarah tu bhi mujhe milne ki firak mein hai,
Per panchhi ki tarah agar main bhi ud paati...

Fir chhahe aahein bhar bhar ke , bichadna padta humko,
Per  ud ker ek baar to tujhe mil aati,

Irada to nahi tha khuda ke sath gustakhi kerne ka,
Mafi chahti hu khuda se ki uski yaad aane se pehle teri yaad chali aati..

Mere kaleje ko apni hatheli mein rakhne wale keh de ek bar,
Ki meri saansein sune bina teri aankhon mein bhi neend nahi aati...

You still last somewhere inside...

I did it once and for the last,

People might call you my past.

But when you bring tears to my eyes now,

people can call you my past but I don't’ know how.

You  gave me joy,

Because of which I’m happy till now,

You gave me love,

On which we both were bow..

You gave me a life,

Which was just wow..

When you’re my past,

Why inside me you still last...

मेरे देश को गाली मत देना ...

ना नारी ही सुरक्षित है ,

ना बच्चो को ही शिक्षा मिल रही है,

कही ख़्वाब पलकों से छीन रहें हैं,

खुदखुशी की यूँ होड़ लगी है .

हर गली में चोर रहते हैं,

हर गली में बैमानी बोल रही है,

फिर क्यूँ लोग मेरे देश को गाली देते,

जब भ्रष्टता तो घर घर में खेल रही है .

कोई बिना पढ़े घर डिग्री ले आता,

कहीं करो की चोरी मुह खोल रही है,

कोई रिश्वत, मिलावट में मर जाता,

कहीं बिजली की चोरी हो रही है. 

खुद को रोक लो बिकने से चाँद सिक्को के लिए,

अब तो सिक्को की कीमत भी गिर रही है,

मेरे देश के युवाओं बचा लो इस देश को  ,

इसकी हस्ती काली परछाइयों से घिर गयी है .

अगर खुद न किया हो कुछ कम ऐसा तुमने ,

तो बेशक मेरे देश को कोस लेना ,

पर अगर जो खाया है इस धरती का नमक तो,

खुद करके चोरी मेरे देश को गाली  मत देना ...

खुद करके चोरी मेरे देश को गाली मत देना ...

:(

Dil hi dil mein jo mehsoos kiya kerte the,

Wo baat zahir na ker sake kabhi bhi sareaam.

Na doori hi thi humare beech, na hi hum kareeb the,

Bas fasla kam hone ke intezar mein guzarti thi her sham.

Na Nafrat hi ker sake, na de paye mohobbat ko hi anjam,

Toot ke jo choor ho gaya, wo dil ab aayega bhala kis kam

.

Mujhe ishq hogaya tha bhale se ek insaan se,

Bas mera naam judne se pehle, kisi aur se jhud gaya tha unka naam.

I'll not die

Sitting in this lonely place thinking about you,

Seems like my life is halted, breathes are just few.

For you my love I shouldn't have cried,

I would have a bit less broken if you wouldn't have lied.

I decided not to love you more,

And to move on in life for sure.

Being the only thing that life is still there in me,

What should I do, when I assumed that my life is with thee.

Its proven that love is blind,

Because heart just feels, its not like mind.

You touched my soul, and made it yours,

I'll survive some how, I know it of course.

Although I know, it feels as if a needle speared by,

I'll still be on earth,may be not alive, but I wouldn't die.

Devastated I'm

I cried in my heart,

I died in my heart,

I'm broken deep in my soul,

My life is crawling with a hole,

Even then I smile,

You couldn't wait for a while,

Wherever you want,I'll let you go,

Devastated I'm, I would never show.

Teri Meri Kahani Hai...

Chhoti Chhoti badmashiyon me hi

 jeewan ki rawani hai,

Jo naa ki shararat to fir

 Ye bekar jawani hai,
Zindagi jo itni khoobsoorat hai,

Wo bas kambakhat dosto ki meherbani hai…

Na kisi ke liye rona hai,
Na kisi ki bewafai ki pareshani hai,
Meri kalpana ko chhavi mil gayi to theek warna,

Samjhenge aisi hi apni kahani hai…

Muskutare in honthon ke peeche,
Na koi bair na aankhon mein pani hai

Dard halka sa hai kahin per,
ye dastan hume nahi sunani hai,
Kyunki hame apna banana hai duniya ko

Aur ye duniya khusiyon ki diwani hai…

Faasle

Kabhi Khoobsoorat hua kerte the,

Humare beech ke ye fasle,

Nazro se tay kiya kerte the hum,

Do kadmo ke ye fasle,

Gaal gulabi ho jaya kerte the,

Jo mil jati thi unki nazron se ye nazar,

Tab honthon ki shararti muskan ,

Mitati thi ye fasle,

Khoobsoorat na sahi

Per ab bhi hain ye fasle,

Dilon ko cheer jate hain,

Dard itna dete fasle.

Na muskan pohochti hai un tak na,

Nazrein mita pati hain ye fasle…..

Home Sick.

I'm tired of perfect roads,

I m tired of fast rail,

Here comes the truth,

In this fresh air,

 It’s difficult to Inhale

I want to burn myself in the temperature forty five,

I too want to be pampered,

Don’t want to be just alive.

Though wonderful people gave me some unforgettable moments here,

But I know something is missing,

This feeling is difficult to bear;

All I can say is I’m home sick, 

Didn't want to show,

Strength is what that I’m losing now,

My family doesn't deserve to be alone,

A feeling is crossing my mind that this heaven is not my own .