You Are!

Most of the time you'll find me, smiling with pride,

Though, waves of emotions are compiling inside;

I'm the statue, cast out of struggles,

Like from the black cloud, sunshine smuggles.

I'm the winner of a thousand lost battles;

Now which seems to be forgotten prattles;

Eyes full of tears in joy and sorrow,

I always hope for better tomorrow.

I'm a common person, someone among you;

I'm an optimist, existing in old, in young you;

I'm the one who never cheat,

Let others speak about your defeat.

Whats your character, you decide;

You're a motivator, you're a pride;

You'll fail sometimes, like I did;

But standing again, proves that you're not an Outbid. 

An Independent Woman

It was dark really dark,

Still I was focused to reach my mark,

It was raining hard in windy night;

Thanks to God, my Gut feel was right.

I chose my path all my life,

I kept my spirit high every time

No matter I failed or eventually it became a learning;

I kept the balance on straight way and turning.

Alone in the new city, I remained on my own;

Inside there is a spark I had never shown,

On the frozen north sea, I danced and cried loud.

A stance I adore and sometimes proud.

I'm a girly girl, still I chose struggle over luxury,

As attitude matters a lot and gives you victory,

I prefer to wear killer smile over pretty dress,

I'll always remain a pure soul, ll never be fake to impress.

Like every one, I go through the phases good and bad,

But I'm an accomplished dream of my Dad,

As I keep my smile, till the very last moment I can;

Dad says I'm a freshness in the life, I'm a strong independent Woman.

A letter to mom!

I'm crying inside mom, as I can't make you proud;

It's difficult to express what I feel, it’s difficult to say it loud.

Why did you train me to do the stuffs with computer and book?

You didn't train me to manage home, didn't make me a perfect cook.

It's not that I don't want to learn things, with your thinking I agree;

It's just that I’m struggling and found out that it's not my cup of tea.

It's just that I’m not able to manage my life, that's why I'm upset;

It's just the office which I can do, in that too I'm not perfect.

But traveling is taking most of my strength Mommy,

Otherwise your daughter is not a looser mommy.

I don't know, why I’m not keeping well,

I wish you could come by my side and could see my eyes swell.

I love you mom but I can’t be like you,

You are an angel, but  your daughter isn't one...haven't you really knew?

I don't know how you managed office, us and home,

For me managing these stuffs are like a never building Rome.

Why did you gave birth to such an imperfect daughter,

She can just give you reasons for worry, not a single sound of laughter

Log

Log hi log, jahan bhi nazar padi;

Bhagte hue, chalte hue aur chillate hue log.

Har chehra pe shikan,

kuchh jeet ka jashan manate,

Kuchh hare hue log...

Yahan har ek ki bemisal kahani hai,

Kisi ke sapno ko pankh mile;

Kisi ki ankhon mein pani hain.

Train mein dhakke khate, aur marcedes mein traffic mein fase log,

Signal mein paise mangte,

Mandir mein Dan dete log.

Taj mein Chai peete, vada paw ki chatkar lagate log,

Choupati pe jashan manate,

Samunder kinare pyar barsate log.

Kuchh na keh ke bhi sath nibhate log,

Saw Wade ker ke bhi, daga de jate log...

Ajeeb Anuthi si hai ye nagri...

2 crore log aur 2 crore tarah ke log...

Nahi

Kuchh bekhabar hain sansein meri,
Tujhse koi nata bhi nahi,
Akeli hai ruh meri,
Aur Tera khayal dil se jata bhi nahi.

Tere jhoot se, dil toota;
Aur ise koi ab jod pata bhi nahi,
Takleef is kadar badh rahi hai,
Aankhein band hoti nahi,aur jiya jata nahi.

Aane se pehle, meri zindagi ke darwaze per,
Bata diya hota, ki har koi sath nibhata nahi.
Do pal ka sath dekar,
Humrahi yunhi koi kehlata nahi...

School Friends

Sometimes I look back and give out tears,

How am I living the truth my heart always feared.

Without you all, I lived for a decade now,

You all were there in my memories and I managed some how...

We all are friends since the time,

Calling our names together, became a beautiful rhyme.

Most of you are mine, from the day one of school,

Alone we were saint and together super cool.

Separations of seat, as a punishment,

Was too much to bear,

Those chats in the last page of the notebook,

Reveals our relation very clear.

With same uniform everyday, we used to look stunning,

That secret self study was the only thing which was cunning.

To fight for the only available Basketball,

To take the last row, so that we could talk in CCA Hall.

We shared class rooms, playgrounds, stages and rocks,

Playing, studying and those never ending talks.

The best part is whenever we meet, we never grow up.

We laugh endlessly and our childhood again shows up.

We speak  our heart, no matter what and  how far we live,

And we will be always the devotee of our beautiful friendship.

  

When you got married...

A drop of tear stopped at the corner of my eyes,

When I saw your bride, standing by your side.

No doubt she was more beautiful;

Guess more understanding and dutiful.

She was smiling, so was I,

She got the truth and I got the lie.

You exchanged the garland,

and posed for a picture...

I don't know how I kept my smile,

With your  wedding vows and scriptures.

People wanted me to meet your wife,

When I just wanted to end my life;

The betrayal and falseness, 

I got from you,

Will remain in my heart, forever new.

May your bride loves you more than I did,

She got the love, betrayal I got instead;

I wish we wouldn't have ever met,

With  the dripping first drop of regret...

Proud Single

Getting lost and growing creeper...

Making my pain deeper and deeper...

No one in the world have the guts,

To aid my burns and wound my cuts...

 

I fell in hole, black and deep,

Which left me to snuggle and weep.

Somehow, I recognized the life,

It’s better to stand alone then to be just anyone's wife...

Ugly Truth!

The lonely world and ugly truths, 

Dead trees and bitter fruits,

Cry and tears are the only pals,

No one else feels your falls.

Those smile and care,

Fake world every where. 

This birth is a lie,

Why to live,when we have to die.

Closing eyes reduce woes,

Closing thoughts reduce foes..

Heavy heart and its weird input,

Tells me...

That my world is lonely and an ugly truth...

Yahi To Zindagi Hai...

Zindagi ki kahani kahun,

Ya kahun peheli is sansar ki,  

Na jane, manaun apni jeet ka jashn, 

Ya sunaun gatha apni har ki...

Jab waqt bohot tha hatho mein, 

Aur sapne bade the ankhon mein.

Kharchne ko paise nahi the, 

Per sukun to tha, raaton mein.

Ankhon mein ek manjhar tha, 

Jo bada sajeela lagta tha. 

Hath mein hogi ye puri duniya, 

Amber kyun zada neela lagta tha...

Aaj ki mehnat kal ki aish,

Kyun bachpan se sikhaya tha. 

Aaj jo sach hai mere samne,

Wo kyun humse chhupaya tha.

Raaton ko jag jag ke padhte the, 

Baki ki raatein jagne ke jiye. 

Ghar ko peechhe chhod aaye, 

Makan ke peechhe bhagne ke jiye...

Maine bola papa se, thak gyi hu main ab, 

Thoda sa sukun hi meri, bandagi hai. 

Fir mujhse papa bole.

Himmat mat har beta, yahi to zindagi hai...

Aur sabki aisi hi zindagi hai...

Gloomy Ocean

On a strange road, with a strange way;
I keep myself busy all long day.
No hope to feel breeze,even winds are being cheat,
As if life is missing some special heart beat.
Distances and the differences,
is making me lame...
I don't know life is playing,
What sort of game...
Lost the thousand dreams of laughter,
Will ask the reason one day... to my life's drafter.
But still, crawling dreams and soaring desires,
Sometimes inside make fires...
Hope there will be a day, which would not be so blue,
And life will not leave me without any clue,
There'll be a sunshine in the cloudy sky,
Then with the broken wings, I'll be able to fly.